Such a precious video!!!!!

***TURN MY MUSIC OFF AT THE BOTTOM OF THE PAGE FIRST!!

Ok, Im not going to lie- Im a Miley Cyrus fan.

I think its because she would always talk about going to bible studies.

And how she will always put God before her music.

I know she has made her mistakes in life, but who hasnt.

I have a heart for little children,

and a heart for people suffering of cancer.

Miley was voted this week as the worst role model for children,

but i think this video proved that statement to be false.

This video made me ball my eyes out.....

I found it off of another bloggers website...

What do yall think? Wasnt that the sweetest thing ever?!

UPDATE....

This is a bible verse that a sorority up in Athens sent me. I thought they were so sweet and thoughtful to do this! I didnt know this story would travel as fast as it did, but thank you so much for getting the prayers spread all around!!!!

¹ Let all that I am praise the Lord;
with my whole heart, I will praise his holy name.
² Let all that I am praise the Lord;
may I never forget the good things he does for me.
³ He forgives all my sins
and heals all my diseases.

-PSALM 103:1-3

I had to cancel my head appointment tuesday because i couldnt get out of taking a test at school without having to take the whole class over again! Since i can not drive right now, my poor mama had to take off work and drive me to valdosta to take a test which was from 3:30-4:45 and then drive an hour and a half back home! Ten minutes into the test my head was POUNDING.. then i got really nervous and ended up having a panic attack during the test. Not to make anything better, there was a girl sitting beside me who was BOY CRAZY- anytime a guy walked by she would click her tongue really loud, start clapping, rocking back and forth in her chair, took the table and flipped it so everyones pencils and paper would fall off, she would look at the boy pick up her pencil and drop it, then hold her hand higher and drop the pencil, i was about to go crazy on her!! i can not stand girls who are so desperate for a guys attention!! Not to mention that my head was pounding harder and harder with every noise she made! I sped through the test just so i could lay my head down, so i know i failed!... cant retake it until next spring. After the test i just got in the car and cried and cried to my mom! She did surprise me with a new black and pink hairdryer and some cute socks :)

Wednesday was my heart doctor appointment. They did another EKG test on me to see if i had atrial fibrillation. IT SHOWED NO SIGNS OF ATRIAL FIBRILLATION!!!!! Its real confusing to me though, because the EKG at the emergency room showed it, and showed me going in and out of a-fib constantly while i was in the hospital. Then my appointment in albany last week showed i have it too. So i have been wearing a heart monitor since wednesday just so they can monitor my heart for 48 hours just to make sure of things. While at my appointment wednesday, they did find out that i have mitral valve prolapse. Mitral valve prolapse is a heart problem in which the valve that separates the upper and lower chambers of the left side of the heart does not close properly. Signs and symptoms of this are: severe chest pains, shortness of breath, heart palpitations,fatigue, anxiety, migraines, and a few more. I have panic attacks real easy and found out that is related to this. It is something that is common in people and nothing to worry about right now! I also faint real easy and the doctor said that i will always be a "flopper" because of this! haha

I have had sooo many people praying for me and constantly checking up on me. I guess it takes times like these to see who your true friends are and also make new friends along the way! Ive tried to take it easy, but get bored easily and usually end up shopping or getting ice cream or going to get coffee. My parents always tell me i dont need to overdo it because of the heart problems and the fractured skull and concussion. I keep forgetting about my head until i do too much and it starts pounding! So they are always right saying that i should just stay home and rest and catch up on school work :(-----> that is what i am really starting to stress over! Im supposed to be studying right now, but you can see that my ADD has kicked in!

I am determined to go to the fair tonight!!!! I have never missed it, and am not going to let this keep me from going!! Im not going to ride rides or anything, just walk around and get me a candy apple and a funnel cake! They always have "fake" designer purses too- i want to get one of those!! And you cant forget about winning a big stuffed animal or a goldfish :) I hope everyone has a great weekend, and i will update as soon as i know something from this heart monitor!!!

thanks again for all the love and prayers yall have all shown!!!!!

Special post...

I didnt want to make my last post TOOO long, but i wanted to dedicate this one to my roommate Haley. Haley was in class when all this happened. I just sent her a text that said "Hey girl, i just hit my head really hard on your drawer and am on my way to the emergency room. Hope class is going good!" She left class right away and met me and my neighbor in the emergency room. Haley is in real estate school and can only miss 2 more days of class, so i felt soo bad making her miss one of those days! She was the perfect person to have with me. She kept me laughing. She made sure i was ok. She made sure i had blankets to keep me warm. She had my phone and her phone trying to keep my parents and my boyfriend calm and updated on what all was going on. She might not feel like she did alot, but she is what got me through the night before my parents got there. I would have been scared to death without her in the room with me!

Haley,

Thank you for everything you did for me thursday! "Your the best roommate ever"...."well, i have been doing this for years" haha! But seriously, i couldnt have stayed calm that night without you there with me to hold my hand during all the shots! Thank you for watching after chanel for me, bringing me food to the hospittal, and helping me and my mom pack up to come home. I couldnt have asked for a better friend/roommate during all of this!! I love you so much haley! I will have a special gift for you when i get back home!!

Whats going on with me.....

I have gotten so many texts,phone calls, voice mails, emails, that i haven't really been able to respond to everyone to tell them what exactly has happened to me, so here is the full story:

Thursday night i had been studying for a while and decided to take a break to paint my fingernails. I went to my roommate Haleys room to get some fingernail polish out of her drawer. My other roommates cat came into the room (pets aren't allowed in haleys room) so i turned really fast to get the cat before she went under the bed. Somehow, i dont really understand how.... i hit my head HARD on the drawer i had opened to get fingernail polish. It was not just a little hit, i dont see how it didnt knock the drawer out of the chest. I can still remember the noise it made when it hit. The hit knocked me to the floor (they think i passed out because i dont really remember much about it) But i do remember laying on the floor looking at the carpet thinking "Oh my gosh i just hit my head", "Oh my gosh i probably have brain damage","Oh my gosh im probably bleeding internally and am going to die here and no ones home to help me". Once i finally got up the first thing i did was call my mom on the phone just screaming and in soo much panic. I looked at myself in the mirror and this HUGE knot was already there, just after a few minutes. I ran over to my neighbors house and without much talk, her daughter rushed me to the Emergency Room just to make sure i didnt have a concussion.

this was 5 mins after the fall, it got so much bigger--cant you tell by my eyes that i was scared???

Once we were in the Emergency Room, they began to run all these tests on me immediately. They did a cat scan of my head, took my blood pressure, just the normal routine. They did a EKG test on my heart. I asked the nurse why there were testing my heart and she said that its just routine and more than likely i would be normal. My roommate Haley had rushed up there at this point and was in the room with me so i wouldn't be by myself. We were sitting in the ro

om talking when the doctors came in and said "Did you know you have heart problems??" WHAT?!?!? ok, i came in for a head injury and heart problems!?? I told them i had no idea and they began to explain to me that the top part of my heart "quivers" instead of pumps oxygen, then they told me, "In other words, the top part of your heart is dead" I just wanted to burst into tears already. The doctor then asked me how soon my parents could get here. Okay, now im thinking im about to die. The doctor then calls haley out of the room for a second, she comes back in crying and i knew something was wrong. She told me that i had fractured my skull and i was going to have to stay a few nights in the hospital. The doctors kept asking me if i smoke and i said no, i asked why they keep asking me that and they told me that i had smokers lungs. I am NOT a smoker... I dont even like to be around smoke, so that really shocked me too.

Haley decided to be funny and take a picture of me.. i dont know if i was laughing, or crying. This was still in the funny part where i just thought i had a possible concussion..

My doctor in the ER was not very professional. I asked him what all i had to do at the hospital that night and his response was "Well the only thing you cant do is have sex tonight" Me and Haley just looked at each other in complete shock! After that he asked me if i smoke and i said no, then he asked me if i drink and i said no and his response was "Well you should start!! drinking, smoking, and drugs makes everything better!" I didnt know if to laugh or to cry that i had some crazy old 90 year old man working on me!

Once my parents got there they began to explain things a little more. They told me that i did fracture my skull but the fracture did not push into the brain, so they do not think there is any internal bleeding. I do have a concussion from it, and have to be out of school for a while, and can not drive. I have atrial fibrillation. That is where the top part of the heart does not work, causing the bottom part to do all the work. A risk factor with that is blood clots. I could develop a blood clot in my heart and have a stroke or a heart attack. Atrial fibrillation can be common but they were more worried about my case just because of the fact that i am so young and little. They are unsure what kind of medicine to put me on. There is some debate on wheteher or not to start me on a beta-blocker/blood thinn

er because of my age and if i do have bleeding in my brain, it could make it worse. I met with a doctor in Albany yesterday and they said that my skull fracture will heal without surgery, but i have to meet with the heart specialist Wednesday to figure out where to go from here. They also told me that i will have bad headaches for weeks to months from the concussion.

I have always had problems with being out of breath, fainting, heart flutters, so atleast we now know the cause of all of this! Hopefully we can figure out what to do next!

I have never had to stay overnight at a hospital and i must say that was the scariest thing ive ever had to go through. My parents went to their car around 1:00 in the morning and while they were gone my heart machine started beeping really fast and i had about 3 nurses rush in and 2 doctors, they quickly began another EKG test on my heart and i remember just looking out my door to see my parents standing there. All i wanted was to have them in the room with me. It got me thinking about how i keep telling them that i am old enough to do stuff on my own and i dont need their help as much anymore, but right then i changed my mind very quickly. I AM still a baby, and i DO still need my parents..

This was my head the next day, you can see that the knot went down some, but you can see 3 little scratches now. Today, my face is swollen on my right side and i have a feeling that it is going to start bruising later on today :(

Thank you all for your prayers, love, and support. It means more to me than you will ever know!! This has been a scary thing to go through, but i know the lord is right there with me. Without the fall happening, i wouldnt have been able to find out about my heart problems---the lord works in some crazy ways doesnt HE? I will keep everyone updated throughout the next few days and will let everyone know about my doctor appointment next tuesday and wednesday! Please just keep me in your prayers during this time and pray that the headaches start fading away!

****HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREW****

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANDREW!!!

Today is my "little" brothers 17th birthday!! Im about to be 21, and he just turned 17, but everyone always thinks he is the older brother and im the younger sister!! (Maybe because hes over 6 ft) I dont think i could have asked for a better brother! We have our little arguments, but hardly ever anymore! Im so lucky that I can honestly call him one of my best friends!

Andrew,

HAPPY BIRTHDAY! I hope you know how much you mean to me and how much i love you! I mean it when i say i couldnt ask for a better brother! You can always put a smile on my face! I hate that we dont get to hang out as much as i would like to, but when i come home, i love joking on you and punching each other till one of us gets hurt :) Im so proud of the guy you turned out to be! You are such a strong christian and have your head on straight! Mama and Daddy did good :) It seems like just yesterday we were "tattle telling" on each other, fighting over who gets to sit in daddys lap and drive up the driveway, racing to the elevator to see who can mash the button first, and so many more!! Thank you for being the best brother you can be! Im so glad that I can be here for your birthday, but hate that i cant be any fun this weekend! I love you sooo much andrew!!! I hope you have a wonderful birthday!!!!!!!

I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHONY!!!!!

Anthony,

Happy 21st Birthday!! Im sorry Im not there to take you out to lunch to celebrate or have something special planned, but i can not wait to go canoeing next weekend with you and your dad!! I hope you have a wonderful birthday today, and hope that its the best one yet!! I am so proud of you and the man that you have become this past year! Thank you for being so sweet to me! You keep me laughing every single day!! Thank you for being someone that i know i can count on when i need you! You are always there to laugh with me, joke with me, cry with me,listen to me gripe and complain,, put up with my stupid comments, and keep me motivated! It means so much more than you know! HAPPY BIRTHDAY ANTHONY!!!!!!

getting to know me...

I like to smile.
I have little dimples.
Making people smile is my passion.
I used to look older than my age.
Now i get told i look younger than my age.
I love the Lord and have a great relationship with him.
I could stay in pajamas all day watching movies.
I dont like to be on the go that much.
I have a dog who i love her like a kid.
My parents are by far the best you could ask for.
My brother is my best friend.
I drive a silver mustang convertible.
I love fashion.
You can never have too many purses.
My heart is in New York City.
I want seven kids one day.
Im really short, my boyfriend is really tall.
I will not eat seafood.
I want to start my own "Make a Wish Foundation" one day.
If i could wish for one thing it would be for a singing voice.
My dogs names are: Chanel, Monet, and Buddy
My cats names are: Dolce, Gabanna, Paris, and Allie
Ive had to let alot of my friends go these past two years.
Id rather have a few friends than friends you cant trust.
When I was little I wanted to be a boy.
Ive had 3 wrecks in my driveway, 1 at a stop sign, and 1 in a parking lot.
I do not like the way feet look.
I work in a hunting store! HA! if you know me, you know thats NOT me!
I miss being little and having no worries.
I miss my childhood.
My boyfriend is Italian.
I do not do drama.
I have to have matching shampoo and conditioner.
My dog sleeps curled up next to me.
I love to draw and paint.
My dad is the best artist there is.
My brother knows i can still beat him up.
I am obsessed with whitening my teeth.
I have been lucky to have met all of my great grandparents, and still have 2 of them around.
I love Pumkin Spice Lattes from Starbucks.
Im a psychology major.
I love picture frames.
My dog loves to wear clothes.
I like to hunt and fish.
I call my mom 15 times a day.
I can NOT cook.
I love to change my hair color.
I have the craziest dreams.
I am the worlds worst at working out.
I do not party/have sex/do drugs /cuss-> thats just not my thing.
I take a bubble bath every night.
The dentist is my biggest fear.

two blondes and a fire....

Being in South Georgia, we do not have that many cold days.. however today was 64 degrees which was considered freezing!! I was finally able to wear my winter clothes! OH HOW I LOVE WINTER CLOTHES!!! After a long day at work, I came home and told one of my roommates i wanted to build a fire! She was just as excited as me!.. problem was, we didnt know where to get firewood, how much firewood we needed, we both knew something about a starter long (we didnt know what they were though, just knew we needed one!) Well i decided to go searching! Walmart has everything so i went there first.. i came to a shelf with a box that says "ALL NATURAL FIREWOOD!" i had NO clue you could buy firewood in a box at walmart! ok so now Im sure your wondering why we have a cooking spoon! Well I had the bright idea to use this as our "fire poker" since we dont have one! haha The flashlight.... we knew we had to "open something up in the chimney" we werent really sure how to do that so we searched the house for a flashlight and then started shining it up the chimney, eventually i saw a metal thing on the fireplace that said "open" and "close".. we were just making it way too difficult!

After all our hard work, this is as big as we could get the fire!! This just was not going to work for me!! Megan gave up, so i stayed in here trying to think of how to make my fire like daddy makes it!! Megan wanted to go pick up leaves and sticks and stuff in the yard, but i called my mom and she said that would smoke up the house! I then had the bright idea to take about 30 sheets of computer paper and crumbled them up.. wasnt sure if it would work.. but i did get this...

I found out very quickly though that paper burns VERY fast!!! So this fire did not last long!

You cant see it, but this is when the "kitchen spoon" comes into play!! haha Even though we may not have had the best fire, it felt so good to finally have a nice fall day! I cant tell you how many times i heard people talking about how much they loved the weather today. Everyone just seemed to be in such a wonderful mood! Theres just something about fall that does that to people! :) After we got done with our fire, we ate some homemade vegetable soup that my roommate made, and then rented two movies from the dollar rental at walmart (if you havent tried that, its SUCH a good deal!) and made some hot chocolate with marshmellows!! Tomorrow is probably our last cold day for another couple of weeks! :( Yesterday i was wearing shorts and a tanktop, today i wore jeans, sweater, scarf and boots... oh how i love the crazy georgia weather!!! Hope everyone has a nice relaxing weekend!!! :)

FALSE PREGNANCY!!!

No, No, No... not a false pregnancy in ME.... but in my dog, Chanel!! This is the craziest thing that i have ever seen in my entire life!! A few weeks ago, i took my dog in to get "fixed'. I was sitting in class and got a phone call from the vet telling me they thought chanel was pregnant! I told them there is NO possible way, she is never around other dogs! Turned out, she was going through a false pregnancy! I picked her up and came home and figured things would go back to normal now. OH HOW I WAS WRONG!!! The next day i came home from work to see this.....

I feel really weird saying this, but she had the "glow" of a new mommy!! I called the vet about it, and they told me that she thinks that all her stuffed animals are her babies!!! She made a bed for them in one of my closets and would know if just one of them were missing!! I put her in my bed to sleep with me and she cried and cried, i put her down and she ran to the closet to get one of her babies. We went through that process about 8 different times that night, until i finally got up and put ALL of her "little puppies" in my bed! haha

This is a picture of her thinking she is nursing one of her babies!! Im tellin' yall, ive never seen anything like this!!!! She moves them to so many different hiding spots and tries to share her bones with them!!!

The stuffed animals arent the only thing that she has been nursiing.. but look at this!!! I dont think it can get any crazier than this right here.....

This is my little cat, Paris, nursing on chanel! I promise yall i am not crazy, i just thought this was the funniest thing ive ever seen!!! I can not tell you how many times i called home and told my parents i was ready to send Chanel home to them!! I felt like i was taking care of a mama dog and her puppies! I called the vet several times asking if i could hide her "babies" and he said she would have gone into major depression!! He then told me i could put her on a NuvaRing (birth control) to calm down her hormones! I dont know about yall, but i died laughing when i heard that!!! Has this ever happened to you?!?! If it has, I am sure you know exactly what im talking about!! I love my dog, but was ready to give her away!!!

Where to start???

Ok, well Ive been thinking a long time about getting one of these, and as you can see I finally decided to! Im not really sure what I want to do with this blog. Alot of people have their blogs to be one themed...but there is not really just one thing i want to write about. I want to use this blog to just ramble. I want to use this blog to express my crazy thoughts. I want to use it to document my life and look back on it down the road. I have a heart for other people, so maybe i can use this blog to share inspirational stories, or just daily challenges?? i dont know!! i guess we will see where this goes!! Im so excited to get started! One thing that made me want one of these is i used to keep diaries when i was younger. The last few times i have gone home to Albany, i have sat down with my mom and read about 6 years worth of diaries. They were so funny. I am so glad i kept up with them for so long because it was such an awesome feeling to go back and read all my crazy, dramatic, sad, pointless, heartfelt entries. Im sure i will post a few of them on here eventually to show how much of a nerd i used to be! So......Here we go!!!!