Whats going on with me.....

I have gotten so many texts,phone calls, voice mails, emails, that i haven't really been able to respond to everyone to tell them what exactly has happened to me, so here is the full story:

Thursday night i had been studying for a while and decided to take a break to paint my fingernails. I went to my roommate Haleys room to get some fingernail polish out of her drawer. My other roommates cat came into the room (pets aren't allowed in haleys room) so i turned really fast to get the cat before she went under the bed. Somehow, i dont really understand how.... i hit my head HARD on the drawer i had opened to get fingernail polish. It was not just a little hit, i dont see how it didnt knock the drawer out of the chest. I can still remember the noise it made when it hit. The hit knocked me to the floor (they think i passed out because i dont really remember much about it) But i do remember laying on the floor looking at the carpet thinking "Oh my gosh i just hit my head", "Oh my gosh i probably have brain damage","Oh my gosh im probably bleeding internally and am going to die here and no ones home to help me". Once i finally got up the first thing i did was call my mom on the phone just screaming and in soo much panic. I looked at myself in the mirror and this HUGE knot was already there, just after a few minutes. I ran over to my neighbors house and without much talk, her daughter rushed me to the Emergency Room just to make sure i didnt have a concussion.

this was 5 mins after the fall, it got so much bigger--cant you tell by my eyes that i was scared???

Once we were in the Emergency Room, they began to run all these tests on me immediately. They did a cat scan of my head, took my blood pressure, just the normal routine. They did a EKG test on my heart. I asked the nurse why there were testing my heart and she said that its just routine and more than likely i would be normal. My roommate Haley had rushed up there at this point and was in the room with me so i wouldn't be by myself. We were sitting in the ro

om talking when the doctors came in and said "Did you know you have heart problems??" WHAT?!?!? ok, i came in for a head injury and heart problems!?? I told them i had no idea and they began to explain to me that the top part of my heart "quivers" instead of pumps oxygen, then they told me, "In other words, the top part of your heart is dead" I just wanted to burst into tears already. The doctor then asked me how soon my parents could get here. Okay, now im thinking im about to die. The doctor then calls haley out of the room for a second, she comes back in crying and i knew something was wrong. She told me that i had fractured my skull and i was going to have to stay a few nights in the hospital. The doctors kept asking me if i smoke and i said no, i asked why they keep asking me that and they told me that i had smokers lungs. I am NOT a smoker... I dont even like to be around smoke, so that really shocked me too.

Haley decided to be funny and take a picture of me.. i dont know if i was laughing, or crying. This was still in the funny part where i just thought i had a possible concussion..

My doctor in the ER was not very professional. I asked him what all i had to do at the hospital that night and his response was "Well the only thing you cant do is have sex tonight" Me and Haley just looked at each other in complete shock! After that he asked me if i smoke and i said no, then he asked me if i drink and i said no and his response was "Well you should start!! drinking, smoking, and drugs makes everything better!" I didnt know if to laugh or to cry that i had some crazy old 90 year old man working on me!

Once my parents got there they began to explain things a little more. They told me that i did fracture my skull but the fracture did not push into the brain, so they do not think there is any internal bleeding. I do have a concussion from it, and have to be out of school for a while, and can not drive. I have atrial fibrillation. That is where the top part of the heart does not work, causing the bottom part to do all the work. A risk factor with that is blood clots. I could develop a blood clot in my heart and have a stroke or a heart attack. Atrial fibrillation can be common but they were more worried about my case just because of the fact that i am so young and little. They are unsure what kind of medicine to put me on. There is some debate on wheteher or not to start me on a beta-blocker/blood thinn

er because of my age and if i do have bleeding in my brain, it could make it worse. I met with a doctor in Albany yesterday and they said that my skull fracture will heal without surgery, but i have to meet with the heart specialist Wednesday to figure out where to go from here. They also told me that i will have bad headaches for weeks to months from the concussion.

I have always had problems with being out of breath, fainting, heart flutters, so atleast we now know the cause of all of this! Hopefully we can figure out what to do next!

I have never had to stay overnight at a hospital and i must say that was the scariest thing ive ever had to go through. My parents went to their car around 1:00 in the morning and while they were gone my heart machine started beeping really fast and i had about 3 nurses rush in and 2 doctors, they quickly began another EKG test on my heart and i remember just looking out my door to see my parents standing there. All i wanted was to have them in the room with me. It got me thinking about how i keep telling them that i am old enough to do stuff on my own and i dont need their help as much anymore, but right then i changed my mind very quickly. I AM still a baby, and i DO still need my parents..

This was my head the next day, you can see that the knot went down some, but you can see 3 little scratches now. Today, my face is swollen on my right side and i have a feeling that it is going to start bruising later on today :(

Thank you all for your prayers, love, and support. It means more to me than you will ever know!! This has been a scary thing to go through, but i know the lord is right there with me. Without the fall happening, i wouldnt have been able to find out about my heart problems---the lord works in some crazy ways doesnt HE? I will keep everyone updated throughout the next few days and will let everyone know about my doctor appointment next tuesday and wednesday! Please just keep me in your prayers during this time and pray that the headaches start fading away!